the_wynster: (Remember Who I Am)
December 31, 2008
New Year's Resolutions: The Two Lists
A Message from DailyOM Co-Founder Scott Blum

I was fortunate to spend time with an enigmatic man named Robert during a very special period of my life. Robert taught me many things during our days together, and this time of year reminds me of one particular interaction we had.

"Now that you are becoming more aware," Robert said, "you need to begin to set goals for yourself so you don't lose the momentum you have built."

"Like New Year's resolutions?" I asked.

"That's an interesting idea," he smirked. "Let's do that."

By then I was used to his cryptic responses, so I knew something was up because of the way his eyes sparkled as he let out an impish laugh.

"Tonight's assignment is to make two lists," Robert continued. "The first is a list of all the New Year's resolutions you WANT to keep, and the second is a list of all the New Year's resolutions you WILL keep. Write the WANT List first, and when you have exhausted all of your ideas, then write the second list on another sheet of paper."

That night I went home and spent several hours working on the two lists. The WANT List felt overwhelming at first, but after a while I got into writing all the things I had always wanted to do if the burdens of life hadn't gotten in the way. After nearly an hour, the list swelled to fill the entire page and contained nearly all of my ideas of an ideal life. The second list was much easier, and I was able to quickly commit ten practical resolutions that I felt would be both realistic and helpful.

The next day, I met Robert in front of the local food Co-op, where we seemed to have most of our enlightening conversations. "Tell me about your two lists," Robert said as the familiar smirk crept onto his face.

"The first list contains all the things I SHOULD do if I completely changed my life to be the person I always wanted to be. And the second list contains all the things I COULD do by accepting my current life, and taking realistic steps towards the life I want to lead."

"Let me see the second list," he said.

I handed him the second list, and without even looking at it, he ripped the paper into tiny pieces and threw it in the nearby garbage can. His disregard for the effort I had put into the list annoyed me at first, but after I calmed down I began to think about the first list in a different light. In my heart, I knew the second list was a cop out, and the first list was the only one that really mattered.

"And now, the first list." Robert bowed his head and held out both of his hands.

I purposefully handed him the first list and held his gaze for several seconds, waiting for him to begin reading the page. After an unusually long silence, he began to crumple the paper into a ball and once again tossed it into the can without looking at it.

"What did you do that for?!" I couldn't hide my anger any longer.

Robert began to speak in a quiet and assured voice. "What you SHOULD or COULD do with your life no longer matters. The only thing that matters, from this day forward, is what you MUST do."

He then drew a folded piece of paper from his back pocket and handed it to me.

I opened it carefully, and found a single word floating in the middle of the white page:

the_wynster: (Lost Soul)
I am done. Finished. Finite.

In response to this posting, I have had more negativity thrown my way then understanding, and that is *after* having stated with absolute clarity where I stand on it all.


No more. There is no hope for the idiots out there who want to close their eyes and say, "not true!" As far as I'm concerned, they can now go bury their heads in the ground and be done with it. Maybe when this ascension happens (if indeed it isn't actually the biggest joke on the face of this planet), they'll get a nice swift kick into reality. Sucks for them if it happens though. Because when Illusion falls, it's going to fall hard...

But again. Not my Problem.

I'm done making people try to See. They don't want to. And as this last posting showed, they will run screaming from it in the opposite direction almost every time. You can lead a horse to water...

So. No more pointless postings to people who don't want to Hear or See.

Once again, I'm withdrawing and admitting defeat because this Veil of Illusion is so far beyond me, I cannot help those who Purposely and Freely chose it over Reality.

I am not some great Prophet from the olden days. Yes, I See and I put it out there when needed, but fuck it. What good is a prophet when the world does not want to listen?
the_wynster: (Fuckit)
Wyn's Definition of a Way of Life:

"one aspect that when combined with other important facets of one's self help make up the esoteric part of an individual."

Wyn's Definition of a Lifestyle/Scene:

"the tendency to participate in a certain trend- be it popular or not- to the point where it can then become the identity of the individual and whereupon in extreme circumstances, the individual cannot distinguish themselves as separate from the scene/lifestyle."

Any questions?
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Sorry, but I'm slowing being driven nuts by the Wicca 101 graduates. You know the type: teenagers who grab a Witchcraft For Dummies book off the shelf at Walden Books or decide that after reading the entire span of Llwellyn books that they are accomplished and very experienced witches and warlocks. Sorcerors and Sorceresses. Ooooooh, and you can't forget the Harry Potter outlook, either.

My brother's girlfriend decides to tell me that she's in the know of the Craft of Old and she's studied it seriously for a few years now. Y'know what she deems as serious? Some damn book found at Border's complete with vials, pouches and ribbons that holds spells within such as Hollywood Beauty Buffs and The Shame of Blame. She even uses a damn voodoo doll she's found at one place or another and actually expects to give her "victim" diaherria or herpes. O.o

Normally I'd laugh at such a ridiculous notion, but the truth is that it's getting much too widespread. And way too common for my liking.

Where have all the Real witches gone? Those that keep the Traditions and Craft of Old close to their hearts? Those that realize the Craft is not a religion or belief, but that it is a way of life?

I'll tell you where: They've all decided to run off screaming into the night and shaking their heads in response to all the FlufferNutters that have come out in full force as of late. The Real Deal's have all gone quiet because they're getting sick of being associated with those imbeciles that claim the same titles and similarities that they hold.

Seriously people! Just where the hell has Honour gone? Usually I'd blame the majority of GothTopic groupies that find it cool to be all Big and Bad while rebelling against thier parents wishes and *le gasp* decide to pick up a copy of Harry Potter: How to become a Real Witch, because y'all know just how much that's going to make them the Big Bad.

The bitch is, it isn't just the phasers anymore. People that are far too old and should be much too smart to pull the bullshit are doing the same damn thing. The Merry-Go-Round of Drama is in full swing and admission's hopping, baby.

Since when did we invoke the God and Goddess for every damn little thing that went wrong in our lives? Since when was Hecate called upon to help "curse" someone because a little one got upset at someone else for being ooooooooooh so mean and un-wiccan like? Since when did the matter of a fuckin hangnail entail lighting a candle?


Has the whole world gone off it's nut?

It has gotten to the point where I cringe at the word Pagan nowadays. Everytime the phrase "I'll light a candle" comes out of my lips I have to fight back the shudder of disgust I get from it. Whenever I'm asked to send energy I have to fight back the automatic eyeroll before actually deciding whether or not the situation holds cause to do it or no.

I am literally ashamed to be connected with some most of those idiots out there that call themselves Pagan. Because of this I've gotten to the point of just calling myself polytheistic. It's simple, doesn't really get the whole Love and Light reaction, and it's still true.

But (and this is the kicker right here) since when did we just back into the corners like dogs and keep our tongues? Just when exactly did it become okay with us to let the outlook of "Crystal Crunching New Agers" be associated with Who and What we are? When exactly did we let ourselves grow corrupted from the damn psuedo-light of all things?

Phrases such as Love and Light!, Blessed Be!, Merry Meet! and Merry Part! make my brain literally want to bash itself to a mushy pulp against the side of my skull so it doesn't have to deal with the shit anymore.

Because really, I'm starting to run out of good boots nowadays. Every damn pair I own ends up ruined after wading through the mindless dribble of bullshit that spews forth from people's mouths.


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